In a recent Instagram video (NSFW), Michael Hoffman — the tattooed bodybuilder, Instagrammer and amateur porn star who became semi-famous in 2014 by starring in several solo masturbation videos — said he regrets making the videos because they’ve hindered his ability to date women, get a job and make friends.
In the video, which seems to have been recorded in the back of a car, Hoffman appears gloomy with black tattoos crawling up his neck. He ruefully says into the camera:
“My decision four years ago to start making videos has really fucked me up. I lose girl after girl. I can’t land a relationship. Can’t get a job. Can’t go anywhere. Can’t do anything. Every single person I meet finds out or knows about it, gets creeped out, doesn’t want to be fucking friends with me. I just lost a fucking girl tonight because she found out — she was really creeped out about it. And I can’t get a job. My fucking life sucks. I regret everything I ever did. Everything. So fuck my life. Fuck my life, on the roof.”
Hoffman, who does not identify as gay (NSFW — though maybe he’s bisexual) originally posted the videos during his younger adulthood, before he got all of his current tattoos. His videos featured him showing off his body, masturbating and sometimes fingering his anus or eating his own ejaculate.
Although he claimed to have originally been paid $10,000 to make 14 videos, he later allegedly tried to sell them to porn star Brent Everett for just $250. Hoffman also apparently offered to make videos for his fans in exchange for money, but never did, leading him to make an apologetic XTube video (NSFW) in which he said:
“I feel bad for a lot of people. I have screwed a lot of people over, and, it was not right of me at all. I’ve been going through a really really rough time with my family, but that’s no excuse to fuck the people over that I did, and uhh, if I owe you a video, this is your video for free.”
It’s unfortunate that he is now feeling social repercussions from his previous porn work. Another gay porn star, Kurt Wild, was allegedly fired from his job at Subway in 2008 after a customer recognized him from pornography. In 2012, Shawn Loftis (aka. gay porn star Collin O’Neal) was fired from his substitute teaching position because of his gay porn past but was later reinstated.
Hoffman also suffers from an anxiety disorder. He has been training as a tattoo artist though, if he has trouble holding down a job, we created a list of seven other professions he might consider.